A Strange, Indicative Email

I just responded to an email from an old, old friend of mine. Now, I normally would never post a personal email on here, but I kinda liked the sound of it. First of all, that response I literally just banged out was the first writing I've enjoyed making in months. This blog has become slightly tedious for me, so to finally write for the love of writing after so much strained effort... it's good to be back!

Absorb the bizarre:

"...

the army is good. its cool being a combat soldier - you know, makes you feel like a warrior. my technical designation in the army is warrior, so you know, they really boost morale around here! none of this makes sense, i know - i havent really slept (you dont sleep if youre infantry), and i got up super early this morning to get home. super early is like 4:30am, even though we've gotten up at 3:45am twice last week. its nuts man how much you can do (full day, HARD physical work) on 2 to 4 hours of sleep a night for weeks on end. nuts. but yeah, im good, content in ways, anxious in others (i gotta earn some money one of these days, and maybe find a girlfriend). so in answer to that one, no, i have ZERO ladies. bro, now i know you're not going to relate, but i havent kissed a girl for two years. two years. thats nuts for me. im no player, not at all, but two years is absurd. i had girlfriends left and right in college, and now with this job and having zero free time etc... my personal life is in a sad state of affair. but i dont get too worked up about it. just workin on the first thing thats brought me satisfaction in a long time (army). so i am grateful for that.

i dont know what im gonna do when i get out of the army. my release date is april 22, 2010, but i dont know. i can extend that for 1.5 years. and i dont know. i dont know! i could EASILY sign another 3-6 months, easily. and i might. but i dont know. and then maybe after that id sign another and another... but just as easily i could say FORGET THIS, bring on the civilian life! which is, by the way, infinitely more comfortable than the army. i wont say more fun, bc i have a HELL of a time running and shooting my gun in automatic (forbidden, but what the heck, might as well) just in training drills (which suck). but man, your life in the army sucks. no sleep, exercising feels like punishment so you hate to move an INCH, ever, you're treated like property, zero privacy (and man, im a private mofo)... i could go on.

so man, i aint got a clue halfway from sunday what im gonna do in the next year. crazy, right? im getting on in years (creak, groan).. gotta think those things out better i suppose - but sometimes it's just easier to let it all slide by, if you're feeling ok i guess.

if any of that made sense, good. if not, that's more indicative of what my life is like than i even let my mom in on. so either way, this was a good email for me!

i hope to see you soon, my good friend.

affectionately yours,
danny"